It's a little tough to come up with something deep to blog. Most of my deep thinking has been committed to working out my future plans. Along the way I've had a pretty vivid sense of God's presence. It seems like He is really leading me and making things clear as I move down the path. It is not coming along as quickly or as neatly as I had hoped. I think that I'm discovering some icky spots in my character. I'm definitely not dealing well with the ambiguity and sense of being in limbo. I want to work on that - and move past this in between time as quickly as possible. It is humbling to see how I've been merciless to others during their leaving process. I'm realizing how hard it actually is to leave well.
In other parts of my life, I'm enjoying school. For my economics class I'm doing research on new economics concepts that could be helpful for my company of choice, The SF Food Bank. I ran across an article that helps me work out some of the tension I've felt about American foreign policy - the myths and truths about the 'good' we do in the world. There's a new rating system that includes more than just dollars given to poor countries. In rates that as compared to GDP, includes peace keeping efforts, shows how trade polices contribute, and also shows environmental issues which effect the poor - such as contributions of green house gasses. The measure isn't perfect, but it's a good step toward a more accurate measure that could strip some of the rhetoric out and give world citizens a clear picture of what their leaders are actually doing for developing countries.
